I stand alone in the middle of a dark park. A cool breeze brushes my cheeks sending chills throughout my body. The stars above watch me eagerly. I look up at them and see their frantic twinkling. They seem as anxious as I am about being here.
My heart starts to hurt when I remember what this spot means to me. This is where we ran away to on the night I was in trouble. She knew my distress that nIght and underrstood the trouble I was in, so she came to my rescue and we ran away here. I closed my eyes and let the cool breeze brush my face.
Thats when the painful memories rushed into my mind. The park around me fell to pieces and turned into the parking lot of my friends house. I was now standing at the side of her car the night it all happened.
She wrapped her arms protectively around my waist and slid her hands into my front pockets. Her chin rested on my shoulder and she whispered to me,
“Let me take you away to the stars.”
I remember everything about that night. It’s a night I can never forget. It’s the one night that plays over and over in my dreams. It’s the only night that I would die for just to live it one more time. It’s the night we fell in love.
It started here. In this soft grassy park. The ducks in the lake behind the trees we played in slumbered as our love took off into the stars.
We had created our own fantasy world. We pinky promised each other that we would visit our fantasy world whenever we thought of each other.
She held onto me tightly, as if protecting me from the outside dangers. She would stop and asked me questions like,
“If you could go anywhere in the world, right now, where would it be? I’ll take you there some day. Just you and I.”
We wondered off to a playground on the other side of the trees. I ran to the top of the ship shaped playground while she stayed on the playground floor. Once she realized how far away I was she climbed up the side of the playground and put me in a corner. We stood there silently for a minute as she observed me. She smiled as I tried to avoid eye contact,
“Why won’t you look at me? What’s on your mind Kendall Rae?”
I worked up the courage and looked straight into her crystal blue eyes. My response came out as a nervous stutter,
“You make me so nervous, Amber Day… And you’re the only thing that’s on my mind lately.” Even in this darkness I could see the blush appear behind her brilliant smile.
We danced around each other as we made our way back to the spot I now stand in. We stopped and she looked up at the stars with a big, hopeful smile,
“One day, we will go there. Just us.”
I stood behind her so our bodies were touching. I brushed her hair out of her face and made her neck bare. My words danced across her skin seductively and sent chills all throughout her body,
“Does this make you nervous?” I could just hear the smile form across her face. She breathlessly gave me a silent response,
I giggled and trotted away playfully. She chased me down, of course, and jumped in front of me causing me to come to an abrupt halt. She was so close to my face that, for a wondrous second in time, I thought we would kiss, but I knew that it wouldn’t happen. Ever.
I was in complete shock when she leaned forward and kissed my cheek. Her lips didn’t linger for long and before I knew it she was off trotting away towards the parked car giggling like a little farie.
“Come on princess, let’s get you home before midnight.” she giggled. I caught up to her quickly and took her hand in mine. I felt the goosebumps form on her arm at my touch.
Light foot steps from behind me pull me out of my vivid replay. Without even looking, I know who it is. I can never mistake the sound of her steps for someone else’s or the delicious scent that she gives off for anyone else. I turn around and sure enough the angel that haunts my dreams and creates my nightmares is standing right before me.
Her golden blonde hair falls down past her shoulders like silk. Her skin is naturally kissed by the sun as it always is and her crystal blue eyes sparkled even in the darkest of nights. The smile that formed across her face is the most beautiful I have ever seen in my life.
I can hear the stars above us buzz with excitement as the two lovers, us, reunite after two years. She walks closer to me. I feel my breath getting harder to catch as she steals it away with each step she takes. Her hand reaches up and caresses my cheek. I feel the warmth of the sun escape through her finger tips. Tears dripped out of my eyes and fell to the grass at our feet. Through the wetness of my eyes I could see her face scrunch up in confusion and pain at my sudden tears,
“Why are you crying, beautiful?” the sound of her melodic voice brings more tears to my eyes. I knew that I missed her, but I didn’t realize just how much until now.
The tears came out faster at the realization that this was going to be the last time I was ever going to hear her voice again. The last time I would ever see her beautiful face again. The last time I would ever feel her warm, smooth touch on my skin,
“I can’t believe you’re really going to move…” I force out between sobs.
“Oh Kendall Rae…” she steps closer to me and continues to pet my face, “You know how badly I want this. You know I’ve wanted a family for such a long time now.”
“I know you do.. Can’t you want it with someone else though?” I realize now how hysterical I sound.
“Oh baby…” she whispers as she steps closer again, “Be happy for me. It’s a huge deal to move so far away and start a family.”
“I am happy for you, I really am. I’m also… Hurt I guess.. I don’t know.”
She stared at me for what seemed like a life time before speaking again.
“you look different, Kendall Rae.” she continued to stare at me. Whenever she looked at me she didn’t just stare. She always looked past me and into my mind,
“You look tired. Like the light has been sucked right out of your heart. What happened to you, beautiful?”
“You happened! You stopped talking to me and never gave me a chance. You told me you loved me and you just dropped me. You stole my heart and with it my light.” Her eyes watered once the realization of my words hit her in her own heart.
“I’m so sorry I hurt you. You’re the one person that I want to make smile even if the whole world lets you down and now…”
“And no you’re the only reason I hurt.” I interrupt her.
“I’m the one reason you are In so much pain.” she whispers. I see now that the truth behind that statement hurts her.
“I’m so sorry Kendall Rae. I love you, I really do… I just love Tahnni more. Please, can you just be happy for me?”
It took a lot to muster up my response,
“I’m happy for you.” I answer truthfully, “No Matter how much it hurts me I will always be happy for you and everything you do in your life.” I wiped the tear that fell out of the corner of her eye. She looked down at the grass, embarrassed by the tears. I pulled her face up so she had no choice but to look me in the eyes,
“Never put your head down. You’re too beautiful to hide your face from the world.”
Without a second thought she leans up and frantically presses her lips to mine.
I could never imagine a more perfect kiss. It was different from any other that I’ve ever had. Her lips are warm and smooth. She knows just how much to move them and when to move them so that our lips work together in perfect unison. My body went numb and more tears came pouring out of my eyes once I realized that this was a goodbye kiss. My hand held the back of her neck tightly. She completely fell into my body and held on tight as if never wanting to leave this moment.
“I’m so sorry.” I feel her sweet breath whisper into my lips before she disappeared into the dark.
At the realization that she was now gone forever I felt the sharp pain of loss hit me hard in the gut. My heart fell piece by piece into the grass that melted beneath my feet. I held onto myself and cried out everything inside of me as the world that we created fell apart around me.